am with you." What does it mean exactly?
When we pray or struggle with a problem within ourselves, are we really
heard, always, in spite of our clumsiness and imperfection, in spite
even of our bad will and our error? And who hears? You who are with
is it you in your supreme consciousness, an impersonal divine force,
the force of Yoga, or you, Mother in a body, with your physical consciousness?
A personal presence that really knows each thought and each act and
not some anonymous force? Can you tell us how, in what way you are
present with us?
Sri Aurobindo and you, it is said, form one and the same consciousness,
but is there a personal presence of Sri Aurobindo and your personal
presence, two things distinct, each playing its own particular role?
am with you because I am you or you are me.
I am with you, that signifies a world of things, because I am with you
on all levels, on all planes, from the supreme consciousness down to
my most physical consciousness. Here, in Pondicherry, you cannot breathe
without breathing my consciousness. It saturates the atmosphere almost
materially, in the subtle physical, and extends to the Lake, ten kilometres
from here. Farther, my consciousness can be felt in the material vital,
then on the mental plane and the other higher planes, everywhere. When
I came here for the first time, I felt the atmosphere of Sri Aurobindo,
felt it materially at a distance of ten miles, ten nautical miles, not
kilometres. It was very sudden, very concrete, an atmosphere pure, luminous,
light, light that lifts you up.
It is now long since Sri Aurobindo has put up everywhere in the Ashram
this reminder that you all know: "Always behave as if the Mother
was looking at you, because she is, indeed, always present."
This is not a mere phrase, not simply words, it is a fact. I am with
you in a very concrete manner and they who have a subtle vision can
a general way my Force is there constantly at work, constantly shifting
the psychological elements of your being to put them in new relations
and defining to yourself the different facets of your nature so that
you may see what should be changed, developed, rejected.
But that apart, there is a special personal tie between you and me,
between all who have turned to the teaching of Sri Aurobindo and myself,—and,
it is well understood, distance does not count here, you may be in France,
you may be at the other end of the world or in Pondicherry, this tie
is always true and living. And each time there comes a call, each time
there is a need for me to know so that I may send out a force, an inspiration,
a protection or any other thing, a sort of message comes to me all of
a sudden and I do the needful. These communications reach me evidently
at any moment, and you must have seen me more than once stop suddenly
in the middle of a sentence or work; it is because something comes to
me, a communication and I concentrate.
With those whom I have accepted as disciples, to whom I have said Yes,
there is more than a tie, there is an emanation of me. This emanation
warns me whenever it is necessary and tells me what is happening. Indeed
I receive intimations constantly, but not all are recorded in my active
memory, I would be flooded; the physical consciousness acts like a filter.
Things are recorded on a subtle plane, they are there in a latent state,
something like a piece of music that is recorded without being played,
and when I need to know with my physical consciousness, I make contact
with this subtle physical plane and the disc begins to turn. Then I
see how things are, their development in time, the actual result.
And if for some reason you write to me asking for my help and I answer
"I am with you", it means that the communication
with you becomes active, you come into my active consciousness for a
time, for the time necessary.
And this tie between you and me is never cut. There are people who have
long ago left the Ashram, in a state of revolt, and yet I keep myself
informed of them, I attend to them. You are never abandoned.
truth, I hold myself responsible for everyone, even for those whom I
have met only for one second in my life.
Now remember one thing. Sri Aurobindo and myself are one and the same
consciousness, one and the same person. Only, when this force or this
presence, which is the same, passes through your individual consciousness,
it puts on a form, an appearance which differs according to your temperament,
your aspiration, your need, the particular turn of your being. Your
individual consciousness is like a filter, a pointer, if I may say so;
it makes a choice and fixes one possibility out of the infinity of divine
possibilities. In reality, the Divine gives to each individual exactly
what he expects of Him. If you believe that the Divine is far away and
cruel, He will be far away and cruel, because it will be necessary for
your ultimate good that you feel the wrath of God; He will be Kali for
the worshippers of Kali and Beatitude for the Bhakta. And He will be
the All-knowledge of the seeker of Knowledge, the transcendent Impersonal
of the illusionist; He will be atheist with the atheist and the love
of the lover. He will be brotherly and close, a friend always faithful,
always ready to succour, for those who feel Him as the inner guide of
each movement, at every moment. And if you believe that He can wipe
away everything, He will wipe away all your faults, all your errors,
tirelessly, and at every moment you can feel His infinite Grace. The
Divine is indeed what you expect of Him in your deepest aspiration.
And when you enter into this consciousness where you see all things
in a single look, the infinite multitude of relations between the Divine
and men, you see how wonderful all that is, in all details. You can
look at the history of mankind and see how much the Divine has evolved
according to what men have understood, desired, hoped, dreamed and how
He was materialist with the materialist and how He grows every day and
becomes nearer, more luminous according as human consciousness widens
itself. Each one is free to choose. The perfection of this endless variety
of relations of man with God throughout the history of the world is
an ineffable marvel. And all that together is only one second of the
total manifestation of the Divine.
The Divine is with you according to your aspiration. Naturally that
does not mean that He bends to the caprices of your outer nature,—I
speak here of the truth of your being. And yet, sometimes he does fashion
himself according to your outer aspirations, and if, like the devotees,
you live alternately in separation and union, ecstasy and despair, the
Divine also will separate from you and unite with you, according as
you believe. The attitude is thus very important, even the outer attitude.
People do not know how important is faith, how faith is miracle, creator
of miracles. If you expect at every moment to be lifted up and pulled
towards the Divine, He will come to lift you and He will be there, quite
close, closer, ever closer.