Manifestation of the Absolute
you have that experience (of the Supreme) as soon as you
come into contact with the Divine within; mentally, you
have the experience as soon as the mind is purified; vitally,
you have it as soon as you get out of the ego. But it's
the consciousness of the BODYthe consciousness of
the cellswhich had the experience at that moment.
Everything else had had it long before and was constantly
aware of it, but the body.... It had been told about it
and believed in it, but it didn't have the experience
in such a concrete, total and absolute manner that it
can't be forgotten for a single second.
that moment [When Sri Aurobindo left his body],
the physical being and the individual, personal body
had the experience once and for all.
body always used to let itself be carried along. It
was one in consciousness with Sri Aurobindo's presence,
and depended on it without the least worry; it felt
that its life depended on it, its progress depended
on it, its consciousness, its action, its power all
depended on it. And no questionsit didn't question.
For the body, it was absolutely IMPOSSIBLE that things
could be otherwise. The very idea that Sri Aurobindo
might leave his body, that that particular way of being
might no longer exist for the body, was absolutely unthinkable.
They had to put him in a box and put the box in the
Samadhi for the body to be convinced that it had really
And that's when it had that experience.
body is very conscious, it was BORN conscious, and throughout
those years its consciousness went on growing, perfecting
itself, proliferating, as it were; this was its concern,
its joy. And with Sri Aurobindo, there was such peaceful
certitude, there were no more problems, no more difficulties:
the future was opening up, luminous and peaceful and
certain. Nothing, nothing, no words can describe what
a collapse it was for the body when Sri Aurobindo left.
only because Sri Aurobindo's conscious will entered
into itleft one body and entered the other....
I was standing facing his body, you know, and I materially
felt the friction as his will entered into me (his knowledge
and his will): "You will accomplish my Work." He said
to this body: "You will accomplish my Work." It's the
one thing that kept me alive.
from that.... There's nothing, no physical destruction
I can think of, comparable to that collapse.
It took me twelve days to get out of ittwelve
days during which I didn't speak a single word.
So the experience I mentioned is the PHYSICAL experience.
he is now striving to give this body is the consciousness
of Permanence, of Immortality, of the Certitude of
absolute securityin Matter, in Life, in every
moment's action. And that is becoming nearer and nearer,
more and more constant. Gradually, the mixture of
old impressions is disappearingthat's the BEDROCK,
the basis of the transformation.
the true movement, you feel the Absolute and Eternity
physically. How?... It's impossible to describe, but
that's how it is. And the minute you get out of That,
when you fall back even slightly into the ordinary movement,
the old movement, there's a feeling of ABSOLUTE uncertainty!
Uncertainty at every second. It would be impossible
for an ordinary human being to live in that consciousness,
with that sense of total and absolute uncertainty, of
total and absolute impermanenceit's no longer
a destruction,[[As was the case when Sri Aurobindo left
his body. ]] but it's not yet an ascending transformation.
Absolute instability. It doesn't last more than a fraction
of a secondjust enough time to become aware of
oneself, that's all.
the other movement weren't getting more and more established,
it would be unbearable, as they say in English.
quality of those two vibrations (which are still superimposed,
so one can be aware of them both) is indescribable. One
is a kind of fragmentation, an infinite fragmentation
and absolute instability: like a powdery cloud of atoms
in ceaseless movement; and the other is eternal immobility,
just as I described it the other day: an infinite Immensity
of absolute Light.
consciousness is still going from one to the other.
else ... what to say? It might almost be called a
diversion. Outside of that, all the other experiences
are pastimes, just something to fill the void.
A perpetual picture show.
with this new perception I feel, inexpressibly, a
concentration of ... the truth of what we call Sri
Aurobindo gathering around and on and within this
body (there is really neither "within" nor "without").
And the body, which has reopened the doors it had
closed [When Sri Aurobindo left his body] to
be able to go on, feels an increasingly total and
unmixed identity, to the point where, if I give my
hand free rein, my handwriting begins to resemble
Sri Aurobindo'stiny, like his.
it's not what one might imagine, it's not one form entering
anotherit doesn't keep him from being wherever
he wants to be and doing whatever he wants to do, appearing
as he wants to appear and being involved with everything
happening on earth: it doesn't change any of that. And
it's not just a part of him ... [that is in Mother,
but his totality]. And that's how I know he was manifesting
the Absolute, he was a manifestation of the Absolute.
Of course, afterwards he revealed himself as what I
had called "the Master of Yoga"; that was the
reason he came on earth (what people here in India call
an Avatar). But that's still a way of seeing things
SEPARATELY: it's not the thingTHE thing.
see tomorrow ... [December 5].
right, mon petit.
what we call "dying"....
can be overcome only when it no longer has any meaning.
And I clearly see a curve, a curve of experience leading
to the point where death no longer means anything.
Then we'll be able to say, "Now it no longer makes
at that point can we be sure.
why I have never been given any assurance, because
it's only when one enters that consciousness that
Death no longer makes sense.
still got a long way to go.
- The Mother